Some days, you will see or hear things that will get to you. Like how the other party is over you and happily with the new one. & there you are, seemingly over it too but you know yourself, it's just a facade you put on to protect your ego, and to mask your misery. It's pathetic, I find myself so.
Until today I still cannot figure if it's love. It is horrible. The neither here nor there feeling. & I am one who must get to the bottom of everything before I can move on but everything is so inconclusive? I thought I was moving on but no I'm moving in a circle. Help.
I feel like my life is quite a failure cuz I really think nobody gives a damn about me at all. If I die maybe my parents and my brother? And they won't be sad for long. And maybe some of my closer friends? Who would be sad for an even shorter time. I'm not contributing anything, so actually nobody needs me on this earth. Why am I so useless?
I know I am saying all these things because I'm in an emotional phase. But they are not untrue so I better do something to make myself needed here. First I need to move on. Consciously let myself move on.
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